Erk, hari ni dah kira a week selepas kelas tambahan berakhir. Saya masih tak menghadiri mana mana tuisyen. Ok dah, saya muak dgn BM saya. /Language change : BM --> BI/ Yesterday, I talked w/ my Twitter friend, Zati who is another SPM 2011's candidate about study. Pfffft, I saw her tweet saying she is now learning chap 4 of form 5 Chemistry. I was like asjkdaskkaskdj I AM NOT YET DONE LEARNING ALL THE FORM 4 CHAPTERS #wth
Yes, that freaks me out. Thinking how my classmates and schoolmates are now attending tuition, learning, memorizing all the formulas and etc. I. am. home. doing. PQS. notes. loosely. I'm stressing yeah I know, I shouldnt feel that way. It's nobody's fault. It's mine but not entirely mine. I have no guts to say what I like and dislike so? Yeaah :X
And this Dec 25th, we'll be going to Langkawi. For holidays again. As soon as we're coming home, my SMU result will be out. And honestly, I have no confidence with my English paper at all. I just can't brag about it even to myself. I still remember the exam day, it was Saturday morning and yeah I was stressin' at that time bcause of the previous day. No one know and no one care. Pfft, usually my pressure ain't stressing but that was the first time I was terribly down. I cant even contol myself. I cant even think in the hall. Yeah actually I have accept the fact and will be 100% ready to face whatever my English mark is but then I think about people around me. I'll be bashed at. I know it's normal but I dont know if i can accept it this time or not. My teacher, Miss Nadia. I'm afraid I cant face her again next time. My family, .. I just cant say anything about that. Yes, it was entirely my fault this time. Yes, I know and I just dont know how to say about all this. And also my NahuSoraf also, I'm not putting much hopes.
But ofcourse, NahuSoraf's paper was a killer. There's too many soalan kemahiran. Oh yeah like i can do that. I dont know which paper I can really rely to :X
I dont even now why I suddenly think of this tonight. It's just everyone starts talking about SPM, tuition and whatsoever so I was like ughh yes, I'm upside down.
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