nuneul tto bwayo.

Look around yourselves. Can't you see this wonder? Spreaded in front of you. The clouds floating by, the skies are clear and blue. Planets in the orbits, the moon and the sun. Such a perfect harmony. Let's start question in ourselves, isn't this proof enough for us? Or are we so blind to push it all aside? -- NO we just have to open our eyes our hearts our mind. If we just look bright to see the signs, we can't keep hiding from the truth. Let it take us by surprise.

"Take us in the best way, guide us every single day. Keep us close to You until the end of time."

Look inside yourselves. Such a perfect order hiding in your selves, running in your veins. What about anger, love and pain and all the things you're feeling can you touch them with your hand? So are they really there? Let's start question in ourselves, isn't this proof enough for us? Or are we so blind to push it all aside? -- NO we just have to open our eyes our hearts our mind. If we just look bright to see the signs, we can't keep hiding from the truth. Let it take us by surprise.

"Take us in the best way, guide us every single day. Keep us close to You until the end of time."

When a baby is born so helpless and weak, and you're watching him growing. So why deny what's in front of your eyes ; the biggest miracle of life?

Allah You created everything. We belong to you Ya Rabb we raise our hands forever we thank You :')

Omegle

Who have tried Omegle before? If you don't know what Omegle is, go and Google! Or just go to Omegle.com and try! Kkkkkk X)

I have a conversation to share! My best convo in Omegle so far! On the first day of school in 2012 muahhahahhaa it was with a stranger that is nice. "OMG how can I say he's nice. Don't believe a stranger" Peeps, this is Omegle you'll know if u meet good people, chill~! (":

Click photos for enlargement~! X)

It was fun, actually at first I was playing around with the random *cough* Kpop fans password which I learned from tumblr *cough* *cough* yea you know we will meet each other lol but I'm not that lucky. So yea this convo start. Then I actually want to promote some to him since he knows nothings lol then we start talking about how I leant Korean. Then suddenly both of us spoke Spanish (wohooooo! luckily I learnt that for a bit) and after that I act want to show him mash ups by DJ Masa but failed :X then we exchanged names and age. Awww he's in my age toooooo! Lol coin.cidence. Then funny how we suddenly talk about type of people you could meet on the internet and giving each other opinions and advices kkkkk XD Then the rest is like HHAHAHHAA I was being a spoiler I couldnt stop the convo ansjakjskajs history.

Aww that's all I was too excited kbye.

New template, new face again.

Yo hiii ehheehee, I changed the template again. Blogskins are beautiful but yeah it's not perfect. It is lacking in sooo many things :"(

I hope I'll stay longer with this one, kkkkkkkk X)

Soooo many things have happened. I'm back from tamrin. Oh bdw, did I even mention that I had a fever last week? I went to tamrin with the fever. And more importannt, it was no common fever, it's dengue! Maybe. I was not officially comfirmed by the doctor but looking at the symptoms then yes. Auw I didnt even go and see the doctor phew ignorant me :/

Not gonna tell much, I just dont have mood to type but yeah Kash brought me back to blogspot. He made a blog~! Yeaaa ahhaha followed :")

See, I don't really have something to say but hurm oh yeah I'm currently in love with B.A.P no not bap that means rice but B(dot)A(dot)P. It's Blonde Absolute Perfect. Ahhahaa BANG ZELO ftw yea TS baby~! Kkkkkk X)

What else? Sorry I forget things too fast now idek why :/

Current fave photo. Jamaican Kitty. Kkkkkk I miss it

High Ay-Tus

Gezz, finally I'm back on the net guys! Wifi bermasalah semalam and seriously saya macam katak bawah tempurung. Especially pasal Perhimpunan 901 ugh, damn I missed it :"(

But ishokey, I'm back now just to declare that I'm statrting to be busy. Firstly, I. AM. NOT. HOME. THIS. WEEKENDS. I'll be at school for tamrin. Yea Tamrin Bina Naqibat 2012. I'm a naqibat now. Ajkajskajskj I don't believe it myself hahaa but yea, I'll try to be a better me :")

On Thursday, will also be busy w/ co-curricular xtvties. Pemilihan rumah sukan, persatuan, badan berunifom. Then go home and come back for Tamrin. Ahhh, I'll be busy. SPM, co-cu xtvties, usrah, naqibat. Yea hope everything to turn up well this year #amin <3

So yea, I'll be off and yea this is the last post. Tomorrow is another day but I don't think I'll have a chance to write something. Blergh, there's more thing to do ahhhaa.

Kbye guys, this is #myprecious for all of you xx (:

Today is GIF day.

I just can't stop doing GIFs all day. Just cannot. OTL it's addictive but still, I'm not satisfied w/ the fact that I dont have Adobe Photoshop w/ me. I can't do it perfectly, well still, there's nothing to be bragged off w/ my masterpiece. It's just craps :"F


LOLOLOLOL.
That's a sad ending hahahhaaaaaa <-- I ended it w/ laughs XD

d.Kash (:

No, not the high expectation.

I haven't post anything for a few days. Yea since last year. I'm just a little bit busy w/ school. School is started, I got my SMU result, be in new class. Well, w/ the old classmates but in new class, new teachers except for some.

I'm not coming for everyday story but I'm really feeling upside down right now.

I don't know how to start but here's the deal. I've been attending yea you know the tuition class I told before. It was great, pro teacher teaching good stuff but still, he only teach Physics and +Math. So yea, for the last few days of school. Nurin told me how she've been attending Pusat Tuisyen Kami in PC and yea she learn all the subjects and stuff. She didnt have a ny problem w/ understanding so far. So.. I kinda interested yeah and it is much cheaper! Peeps, yea money is not the problem, I know but still, being in a class w/ Nurin I've known her and she know me well. If I dont understand something, she'll help me and vice versa. So, being in Cikgu Lie's tuition class w/ no one I really know makes it hard for me. And it feels a little bit burden when someone know that I'm from Maahad, literally the best school. Yea you know, people judge :"X

I talked to my mom last Wednesday and today I ask for the final decision. I thought it's a green light but she said that Cikgu Shidah (literally she's the one that introduce Cikgu Lie's tuition class) told that there's another tuition class that's good. Teaching Bio, Phy, Chemy, +Math and etc. She said that I can attend both that and Cikgu Lie's. I mean .. What's with Cikgu Shidah again? Yea I know her, his son is one year older. We've met before and yea he is totally someone who loves studying and and we're totally different. That's it.

I know my mom wants the best for me. But I feels that her expectation is so high this time. It should be common, I'm taking SPM this year. But it feels like everyone judges me by my SMU result. Just bcause I got 10 mumtaz, because I got imtiyaz but does it menas that I'm that good to .. Idk, I don't even know my SPM target. I just ..

Everyone keep talking about my future. And e/time they mention that to be honest, I'm uncomfortable with it. I just can smile and yea I didnt give any positive reactions, it feels like e/time someone brought up the issue, I'll literally smiling but yeah inside I'm dying.

I just feels that everyone expectation is soooooo soo high on me..!!!
I feel so scare, I feel alone and I feel so lonely, there's no one that I can clung into.

Is it really necessary that yea Alhamdulillah that everytime I got through big examination in my life, I kind of succeed. Breaking the records of my siblings. Yea someone told me that I'm gifted. If true then Alhamdulillah but still, I cant hide the fact that sometimes I feel it as a burden on me. That's why when I got my SMU result, I tried to be like yea, it's nothing. I don't really give a damn about it, but then I realized everyone thinks of me as .. arrogant? Maybe idk :"(

And it don't erase the memory when I got only 8A's in PMR, it was totally heart-breaking. I feel like being bashed eventhough no one did that. I feel so upside down not bcause of the result but how people react. It's like everyone also have a high expectation that time and yea since I got my result, it's like.. The atmosphere is dying.

I don't want to get through that again. Just never! But yea everyone forgot that already I think, since I got my SMU result everyone forgot that. It'll just stick into my memory after all. A heartbreaking memory.

And I just can still remember how everytime I was heartbroken, or being upside down no one will ever realized or maybe they do but they won't give a damn. Yea I'm not affected by that, it's okay since I grow up digging the inner strength in me. During the times, I would comfort myself, bring me up again all by myself.

That's not the issue here.

But still, I'm afraid I'll put everyone down again this time. I just can't think of anything that would be the best choice. So yea, I'll just follow what everyone says again this time. I've been doing this for the 16 years eh? Sometimes I do feel and I do afraid that I cant even make my own decision for small things bcause I'm used to the situation that even though I think about it, someone else have done it for me. Positively thinking, there's someone who thinks about me and foe me. Yea that could be right :"33

Okay peeps, that's it. That's for hearing lmou I don't need listeners, I just need readers. I can write my problems but I can't tell, that's it :")

You read this but please just don't give a damn about this. This is normal right. Everyone go through the days that's just not asgood as other days right? I'm a teenager, this is normal. Kbye.